Human Nature

I am now in the best physical shape that I have ever been in. This actually includes the time in college that I was swimming 50 laps every other day and training to be a boxer. This should be a source of happiness for me. And, to a certain extent, it is. The only issue I have is the timing of it. I basically need a breakup to occur in a long-standing relationship to motivate myself to reach another level of fitness. It also has to do with circumstances that allowed me to find a workout regimen that is unlike any other I've tried. But I find it odd that I can only find the motivation to do more than just maintenance after I am suddenly not with the person that I should have been lifting to look better for. I guess human nature does come into play here though. The threshold is simply higher when something is new than when it is old.

I need a reason. I always need a reason. For everything.

I guess human nature is the reason for this one. That doesn't mean I have to accept I can't change that about myself though. The only thing that remains to find out is the trade-off and whether I'm willing to give it up in order to change.