It's odd how we become numb sometimes. It makes you feel like a sociopath; the fact that at some points in your life, nothing can make you care. Not only can nothing make you happy, but nothing can make you sad or angry either. Sometimes it may last for a week, sometimes a month, and sometimes a couple seconds or a minute, but each time it does, it makes you pine for depression or rage. So often we forget that there is always something worse than depression, and that is not feeling anything at all.
Retrograde calcification of your feelings is almost worse than strictly numbness in the present. It makes you feel like a waste of life sometimes even though logically you know better. To think that looking back on your fondest of memories in a period of numbness and feeling that same numbness rather than the nostalgia you were looking for. It is enough to make you think that you never felt anything at all.
On the other hand, this kind of calcification of the heart makes everything that much more intense when the feelings come rushing back to the surface.
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